Long Read - Serious Talks

Everytime I try to type, my mind seems to have lost all thoughts that have been flooding in. This post is a collection of all random serious thoughts that came to me at random timing. 

First, singlehood. This has been bothering me ever since I reached the marriageable age. First of all, I am not anti-marriage or anti-love. In fact, I am such a hopeless romantics. Somehow this isn't a fact known by many. They could have been deceived by my outer appearance. Maybe. Who knows. Anyway, this is about me and not what others think of me. At my current age, I am still single. Very different from most friends or acquaintance or relatives who somehow found love early and already married by now. Some are already a mother/father. Of course I do want to find love, have my own love story and get married. I also know that marriage is not just a 1-day event but a lifetime of being with your partner, working together in life till forever (hopefully). Society has an expectation of when someone should get married, when someone should start a family, when someone should have their 1st child and so on. So when someone does not really follow the societal pattern, naturally people would single this odd group of people out. I think I might be lucky that no one has actually say out into my face about how I seem to be the only one that is over the "marriageable" age who is still single and yet to settle down like the rest. My question is, am I incomplete if I don't get married?

My problem is I don't know where to find love. Being quiet and introvert does not help either. When people ask me when I will be finding love, my reflex question is where do I find love!

At this point of time, I feel like I want to find my special someone, to have someone I can talk to and share opinions, thoughts and exchange ideas. Basically someone I can communicate to. But I dread the dating process. Somehow and sometime when I do serious thinking nowadays, I realised that I am not willing to compromise what I have currently to try to be in a relationship. I have all the luxury of time now, except for work and family. I can watch as many Netflix movies or sitcom as I want now. I did try online dating briefly and I just don't think I am into it. I am not comfortable sharing private information and even my face with a stranger and definitely do not want to try to keep up a  conversation. The perfect scenario that I hope will happen is for it to happen naturally.. Like in films or books where somehow 2 persons just happen to be in a place and they kept meeting each other and become friends first and later on develop feelings for one another. I want love but don't want to search for it. I want it to come to me naturally.. Is it too much to ask for?

Secondly, career or job. At this point in life, I realised I know what I actually want. I'm grateful to have a job now with good colleagues. But I don't enjoy what I am doing. Every Monday, I will look forward to Friday for the coming weekend. Everyday I look forward to end the day. How is that healthy?! I know for a fact that I no longer enjoy what I am doing yet I am going with the flow because a) I can't find a job that I really like. Let's get real. Is this even possible? b) I have a job that pays decently and the team is fine. But internally I know I don't enjoy and like it. Hopefully I will find something that I am passionate about that allows me to have a job out of it..

Third serious talk. What do you want in life? While on the way to work one morning, I suddenly thought of a question which I think is very thought-provoking. "What is your ideal life?" Is it to own a car, to have plenty of cash in your wallet and bank and to have a job that you are passionate about?

I guess when you reach a certain age, you start to think seriously in life and for your life.. I honestly hope several years from now when I read this post again, I would have achieved what I wish for. Insya Allah

Long Read - Films Watched Part 2

--Continuation--

Since 2018 I have been watching too many films. I thought it would be good to keep track of how many films I have since watched and how many films I watched each month. 

The first post is here https://diwaniladki.blogspot.com/2019/05/this-will-be-continuation-post-on-all.html and this post is a continuation until I feel there should be another new post when this post here becomes too long.

June 2019
Someone Great
Barfi
Heropanti
Pulang
Captain America. The Winter Soldier. 
7 Khoon Maaf
Bombay Talkies
Haram
Good Sam
Bharat
Always Be My Maybe
Judwaa 2
Chopsticks
7 Din Mohabbat In
Leap Year
Haider
Luka Chuppi
Cake
I Am Mother
Fitoor
Birdbox
From Japan to Egypt
Zero
Bridget Jones' Diary
Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason
Kim's Convenience
Dukhter
Zubaan

July 19
Beyond The Clouds
Bridget Jone's Baby
My Name Is Doris
Brooklyn Nine Nine S1-5
84 Charing Cross Road
Sense and Sensibility
Pride and Prejudice
Hamid
Kuch Bheege Alfaaz
The Prize Winner of Defiance, Ohio
Tottaa Pataaka Item Maal
Anne with an E S1-2
Nothing To Hide
Soni
The Breadwinner
Private Life
Leila
Alias Grace

August
Pihu
Mard Ko Dard Nahin Hota
Secret Obsession
Maroon
Love Story
The Landlady
Socha Na Tha
Morning Glory
The Help
Otherhood
Baazaar
Girl, Interrupted
Annie
I Am
Bewitched
28 Days
Madeline
Matilda
Emoji Film
When Calls The Heart
Patch Adams
As Good As It Gets
Jane Eyre
Nanny McPhee
Wild Child
Hotel Transylvania
Madras Cafe
Bedtime Stories
Jump The Broom
Romeo Akbar Walter
Sextuplets
When They See Us
Outside In
Shakespeare In Love
Falling Inn Love
It's Kind of A Funny Story
Badla

September
Irreplaceable You
Pekak
Our Souls At Night
Ek Hasina Thi
Unicorn Store
Mr Roosevelt
Article 15
Speech and Debate
Little Boxes
Tallulah
Out Of Time
Thirteen Reasons Why S3
Nancy Drew (2007)
B.A. Pass 2
Georgia Rules
The Meyerowitz Stories (New and Selected)
Blue Jay
Tall Girl
Love Shuv Tey Chicken Khurana
Tok Tok
Off Course (Spanish)
What Dreams May Come (American)
Dismissal (Argentinian/Spanish)
Cart (Korean)
Marriage Contract (Korean)
Oh My Ghost (Korean)
It's Okay, That's Love (Korean)

October
Descendants of The Sun (Korean)
That Winter, The Wind Blows (Korean)
Don't Dare To Dream (Korean)
My Husband Mr Oh (Korean)
Man To Man (Korean)
Beauty Inside (Korean)

November
Suspicious Partner (Korean)
Arctic Hearts (French)
Ayat Ayat Cinta (Indonesia)
Quicksand (Swedish)
Ayat Ayat Cinta 2 (Indonesia)
Goblin (Korean)
Healer (Korean)
K2 (Korean)
Full House (Korean)
Cheese In The Trap (Korean)
Kingdom (Korean)
Queen For Seven Days (Korean)
A Knight Before Christmas (American)
Big (Korean)
Oh Baby (Telegu)
Birthmarked (American)

December
Sky Castle (Korean)
Strong Girl Bong Soon (Korean)
Another Ms Oh (Korean)
Bad Guys (Korean)
Touch Your Heart (Korean)
Cinderella Story: A Christmas Story (American)
The Master's Sun (Korean)
Something In The Rain (Korean)

Long Read - More Drama?

I have just finished watching 4-parts series of Sherlock. Never did I imagined I would be interested in this series considering I have never been a fan of detective, crime, investigative stories.

Upon further pondering, I just made the realisation that I was actually wrong.
I have always been one to watch crime and investigative stories!

I started watching English series seriously only later, starting with Ghost Whisperer. Earlier I did watch a bit of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Charmed but I wasn't the following type. Meaning I would watch at random and will not follow through with the stories and development.

After Ghost Whisperer, there was Supernatural, Harper's Island, Fringe, the lighter Austin and Ally followed by Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, Good Witch and just recently Sherlock.

Supernatural. Harper's Island. Fringe. Aren't the stories from these series about crime and investigation? How could I be so blind! 

Since we are on this topic, let's revisit what I remember about each series.

GHOST WHISPERER
The series that made my eyes wet  after every episode. Followed Season 1 faithfully and lost interest when it went over to Season 2. Phrases that I picked up, "Unfinished Business" and "Into The Light".

                

SUPERNATURAL
Loved the Winchesters' brother and Castiel. Followed the series faithfully all until Season 6 or 7, I really can't remember. Some parts can be scary as we are dealing with hunting demons and monsters. 

Dean and Sam remain one of my favourite brothers. I may also have a soft spot for Castiel. And who can ignore the trademark Dean's car which I think is very pretty. 

                                       

                                     

                       

HARPER'S ISLAND
The promotion of this series was very different from the usual and because I needed to know who's the killer, I watched the entire series and even came up with a post specifically for this series: http://diwaniladki.blogspot.com/2009/04/new-thing-in-town-harpers-island.html?m=0

FRINGE
If I recall correctly, a friend/colleague introduced me to this series after learning I like Supernatural. Was apprehensive to start watching it (well what's new?) I got stuck to this series and the absurdity and craziness of it all. Peter and Olivia, one of my favourite on-screen couple.

AUSTIN AND ALLY
This is actually a sitcom from Disney Channel. Watched a few random episodes and I wanted to know more and started digging for old episodes and ended up watching all their new ones too. Very funny, sweet sitcom.Watched all the main characters practically grow up as they move on from one season to another. 

CHILLING ADVENTURES OF SABRINA
I remember watching Sabrina the Teenage Witch cartoon when I was much younger. I have always loved the cartoon especially Salem so I was expecting something similar when they made it to live action. I might have missed out the words "Chilling Adventures" as this version is a much darker version. Somehow the magical world of Sabrina dragged me to continue watching her and following her adventures to slowly become a witch.

GOOD WITCH
After Sabrina which I watched on Netflix, some suggestions came up and Good Witch was one of it. Still mesmerized with all things magical and potions, I thought hey here's another witch-related drama. But this witch is a different kind of witch. Even after completing all 4 seasons, we are still not informed explicitly if Cassie is really a witch! The show is a feel good drama where all things eventually fall into places later on. Also, there's plenty of good quotes which is often said by Cassie Nightingale herself. Even her name sounds magical! 

UMBRELLA ACADEMY
After Good Witch, Netflix suggested this drama series. Still not completely over all things superpowers and magical, I gave it a try. Interesting series. Someone with superpowers does not automatically become a better person. Here we see people with superpowers yet they are very human and tend to make mistakes like everyone else. 

SHERLOCK
Now, Sherlock. A friend recommended this series and I honestly took some time before I started on this series. The duration for each episode had already made me not want to watch it. After dragging around, I finally started on Sherlock and now after 4 seasons, I can proudly say that I am Sherlock-ed! I have yet to completely get over the series and is currently still having withdrawal syndrome. I even started to have a liking for Benedict, the actor who's playing Sherlock. See what you made me do Sherlock https://twitter.com/diwaniladki/status/1131932394699624449

Update: I hate how the alignment is off in some places but I've edited so many times and it still shows! Urggghh

Quick Update - Not So Mid Week Mid Month Reflections

Work at new workplace is pleasant so far. Team member and reporting boss has been good so far. Both pleasant people with nice working attitude. 

No personal desk so my trusty soft-toy no longer accompany me while I am at work. But! I still have to bring one of them and Doraemon was chosen and it's kept in the locker. Everytime I open the locker, I will be greeted by this blue creature. I need some familiar stuff that is conforting.

Office is cosy. Office building is a 3-storey shophouse building. Lesser humans. Lesser crowd. 

Only thing that I have yet to get used to is the toilet. First time in many years of working that it's a shared facilities. Have to get used to seeing someone of the opposite gender at the wash basin once you are out of the cubicle. For now, this is something that I miss from the usual office building. 

It's Ramadan now too. 

Honestly I am so very glad we get to experience a happier fasting month this year as compared to last year. Mom has been healthier and looking back, it was such a scary nightmare I do not wish to experience again hopefully. 

Long Read - Films Watched Part 1 - Deleted

This will be a continuous post on all films I've watched recently. It will end when I stop watching films or lose interest in keeping tabs. 


For now, I would usually tweet about the film that I've watched so for most of the films below, it will bring you to the short review/comment I have on the film/drama/documentary when you click on the title.  
(Should have created something like this for all the films I've watched since I learn how to watch films 🤔)

September 2018

Filmistaan

Dil Maange More

Bareilly Ki Barfi

Confessions of A Shopaholic

Piku

November 2018
The Princess Switch 

December 2018

13 Reasons Why Season 2

Sabrina and her chilling adventures

Ali’s Wedding

Ittefaq

Andhahun

There was supposed to be more films here but somehow everything goes haywire and misalignment this and that. To keep it clean, it's all deleted as editing several times does not seem to work. 

As this post is now too lengthy for my own liking, a new post will be posted for all films watched from June and hopefully all the way to December. Would be interesting to have a count on the total number of films and dramas I watch in 2019.