Macam paham.. Berkasih tak pernah tapi kenapa macam perasaan dikecewakan, kecewa senagn dirasai sang hati?
Ini salah satu misteri hati yang masih aku mencari jawapannya.
I had planned to revise social sciences but too many workload plus distractions here and there and UNISIM website seems to be down :(
Actually I don't know how and where to start revising. As a matter of fact, I enrolled and got admitted into UNISIM doing Psychology with Business *woohoo!!*
Like finally right? I had been contemplating furthering studies for what seems like 4 years fearing about the finances, whether I can cope with working, whether it's necessary that sort of things.
Finally it struck me that I'm going to be 30 soon. Yeah not so soon but won't be that long either so I told myself do it now before I reach 30 or I won't ever do it again.
So, finance-wise I took a study loan, starts repaying on the 2nd month after I graduate. Problem solved. In a way it serve as a constant reminder I need to really need to study and perform otherwise the loans will be useless and burden to myself.
Coping with work, I'm now what I like to term myself as full time worker part time student. Sounds cool right?
I did think if I really needed a degree since diploma had been quite useful to me so far. Speaking to some people didn't exactly help.
However, that slow burning desire to wear the graduation gown and the CAP which was always there made me do it. I find it funny that my motivation to further study is to wear that cap and throw it in the air but I guess everyone has their own funny motivation surely?
So here I am, 4 months into school and my exams (4 papers) in May! Sometimes I wonder how did I manage to complete those assignments as I can't remember clearly what I had done for the assignments.
Hilarious me! Hahaha! But well I did get decent marks for the assignments :D
Instead of thinking of reaching the destination, I like to think that I also need to enjoy the journey that will eventually lead me to my destination.
Ayat macam paham lagi hahah. Nak buat macam mana I like to write and read and write. It's just that I've been lazy and neglected the writer side of me. Was there even one?
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