I fear that I would not be able to achieve my goals.
I fear that I would fail and dreams will only remain as dreams.
I dream of living comfortably with no worry about money shortage, owning my own car, having some assets and exploring the world. I've yet to get to any of these.
Thinking back, I should be more grateful as I did get some things over the past years.
I wanted to further study, own a degree and wear the gown and mortar board.
After almost 6 years, I'm done with my studies. The graduation ceremony is in Oct. This will then be strike off my list.
I wanted to learn motorbike riding but got persuaded to learn how to drive a car instead.
I earn the licence but ever since I passed, I have not drive and my family is still waiting for that day where I will drive them leisurely.
Sometimes I feel like I am a failure when I see other people who is my age or even younger get everything I listed above. Then I tell myself why do I need to compare with others.
We all fight our own battle and this is no competition.
But I am only human and sometimes I crumble and feel like I have still so long to go to get to my goals..
